wish list and memories

As time flies by,
I haven't heard anything from the boyfriend/non-friend.I am still feeling that I will receive a call.I did not peg him for a coward who wouldn't not call good or bad.I suspect he's busy/chicken feet.Will he come around.He probably wont.
I read somewhere that men will come around if they feel it's the right woman.I'm probably not.For him. That is.And maybe its all for the best.Do I need closure?
Maybe not,
Closure is very final.I like hope.I like the natural course of time which helps you eventually know whether or not anything is meant to be or no.I like I now know I can never ever get back to major ex.We're friends mainly as its comfortable.I dont wait or pine or his phone call,I dont take his call if its not possible.
With new guy it isnt like that.I waske up with every phone ring,hoping the number is his.And hoping that I dont pick up and I can have the upper hand once.Where I am in control.
But I guess growing up is about segregating and knowing what you cant handle.
Thus flexibility is lost.My sister,new guy are all pretty much around the same age and they share a common thread lack of flexibility.They are very set n their ideas and thoughts and I think that makes it difficult for new people to come into their life comfortably.
Anyway I probably am too in the contemplation phase.Just because I like the guy does NOT mean he is right for me.
I can see my friends transforming in front of my eyes.Success and knowledge gives people new found confidence that helps them be clearer in life.And I suppose both the above 30yr olds I mentioned above have had their share of both and that coupled with liing life by yourself making a lot of decisions on your own has its downfalls.
here's hoping that the nest time I write I will put in my wishlist(since its my bday time and its always a good time of the year to wish for nice things that you could probably aspire to do so).
Love,
Y